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I know I don't usually explain my images, but this is definitely a departure from most of my work, and it was done through a completely 'letting go' process, so I thought I'd describe what it has shown me.
Due to higher levels of pain in my hands and shoulder that past several days, I've needed to work more quickly and loosely. I started these pages with my usual layer of gesso, but while it was still wet I scraped in three symbols - just opened myself and let what ever came to my mind, go directly down into the surface. No thinking, just action - wheel, ladder, bird - the first three things that popped into my brain.
While that dried, I picked through a small pile of images and words sitting on my lap table, and "shelter" came to mind, while visualizing house shape. The H hospital sign caught my eye, creating a perfect roof line, so I tore it out into the house shape. Adding to it's perfect shape, I realized that the image of the hospital and arrow were meant for me symbolically and literally - I saw the arrow pointing to the left, which made me think about how I am still recovering from my last stay at the hospital, and the arrow seems to be pointing to the past.
Suddenly it all became quite obvious - the work told me what was going on, as it unfolded in front of me. The wheel represents the frustration I feel as I'm "spinning my wheels" in the healing process, with physical therapy (which has triggered a few new problems for me) and all this waiting I'm doing to get better. The ladder is a way to climb out of the hole I feel like I'm in, and the bird is just a playful, "keep it light" kind of image - to sing and laugh, though it still grounded, and isn't flying quite yet, it does have wings that spread wide... The hands point the way upward and off the wheel spinning, and the fortune just had to be used!! "Warning: do not eat your fortune"!?!? I got this over the weekend. That could be interpreted in so many different ways, so I'll leave it to you!