Friday, November 13

Friday the 13th

This is an image from an old journal, but seems fitting...

The news I received today wasn't what I hoped for,
but could certainly be whole lot worse.

I am very fortunate that my doctor ordered an ultrasound
to go along with my mammogram, because had I relied solely
on the mammogram results, I would be thinking all was normal.

The ultrasound revealed what the mammogram imaging did not,
that I had a lump. The biopsy has revealed that the lump is
'minimally invasive ductal carcinoma'.
Cancer.

Actually, the image above is how I think I should feel,
but really I'm kind of numb.

I keep expecting to feel scared, sad, upset - but I don't.
I know I need to simply keep moving forward, take the steps
required to remove the cancer, and heal.

I didn't get the news until it was too late for me to reach
the breast specialist who did my previous (non-cancerous) lumpectomy,
so all will have to wait until Monday...
so on I go, trusting
all is well, always
all is well, always,
all is well, always,
all is well, always...

31 comments:

  1. You will make it through alright, I am sure of that :)

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  2. Holding you in Light and Love, Karin. All is well. Always.

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  3. My thoughts are with you, Karin...

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  4. so much love spreading out and wrapping around you, from all of us...

    we are all One...

    xoxo

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  5. I like what Lynne said .. and maybe the illustration is all of the warmth and love coming towards you from around the world and wrapping itself around you.
    All is well.
    Hugs

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  6. Supporting you with love, and more love .....

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  7. Sending love and healing thoughts, Karin. Keep moving forwards with light in your heart. Focus on healing. x

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  8. My thoughts are with you. All is well my friend.
    Katelen

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  9. oh, karin, I'm so sorry to hear such news. Be as positive as you can, but also take time to do the ranting and the crying too . . . so much love coming your way.

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  10. Oh, Sweetie, I don't know what to say, except that we are all here to support you with love and positive energy, which, as I've said before, is not bounded by time or distance. You are the strongest person I know, and that strength will carry you through. I'm absolutely sure of it.

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  11. love you love you love you
    all is well always... I will keep this in my mind and heart for you until I don't need to! xoxoxoxox cat

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  12. Hi Everyone,
    thanks to you all for your love, encouragement, love, support, love!! I feel positive and confident that I'll do what needs to be done to beat and move beyond the diagnosis. Thank you all for being here for me with this latest challenge - it means the world to me.
    Love, Karin

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  13. My heart sank when I started reading this, but was joyed at hearing your optimism. I think it would probably be easy to get swept away with emotion and what-ifs, and it is a test of strength and character to remain positive. I truly wish you well, and hope things go well on Monday. Love and care. Heather

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  14. ALL IS WELL ALWAYS......

    I love you. You can do this.

    Love Renee xoxo

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  15. Karen~I'm so sorry about your diagnois. May its lasting impact be only on your creativity, a seed for ever more inventive, resonate, and expansive artmaking. Sending positive thoughts your way,
    ~Betsy

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  16. Karin,
    I'm sending you healing vibes!! All is well... you will be well!

    Love,
    manon

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  17. I can't imagine how you are feeling. Sending all my healing energy your way x

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  18. Karin, in my experience, I've found when I should be upset about something and I'm not... that its because somewhere inside, I know that things will be okay.

    Things will be okay, absolutely. I have faith in that. xo

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  19. You inspire me every day Karin. Every hour and every day.

    I love you.

    Renee xoxo

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  20. Oh Karin,
    I remember numb...and then trickles of feelings becoming gradual floods when I received my MS diagnoses..now the waters are calm again...my heart opens to you...contact me any time via email if you want to just be heard...whatever needs to be said, cried, laughed at (yes there is always laughter in the mix!)

    Just BE...

    have you read Anne Marie Bennett's book Bright Side of the Road? AM is my dear friend...this is a book that follows her breast cancer journey through the pages of her journal...wonderful guided visualization at the end of the book.

    All will be Well...All IS WELL
    xoxoxo
    Laura

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  21. Love and Healing, Always!

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  22. Being numb is good ! gives you time and space.

    Everything will be all right !!!
    I'm sure about that !

    Sending hugs

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  23. I will be thinking of you Karin and sending you a fountain of healing thoughts!! And you can see from all these comments...we are all behind you!

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  24. and... MAY GOD'S LOVE BE WITH YOU... always... it's a Donna deLory song... and even though the word god still makes me cringe sometimes, this is the most beautiful song - ever. i am sending you love and healing and courage and strength and mindfulness of the present moment and a lot of hugs!!! xo

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  25. Many thoughts and prayers to you.

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  26. All is well...in this moment, it is all okay...it is also so very filled with love, circling you in beautiful spirals of sweet soul energy...
    big big love to you, beautiful Karin...

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  27. I'm sorry you are having to go through this. I don't know you, but my heart goes out to you. Your soul is not sick though. I pray your soul will thrive and your body will heal.
    Sending hugs and hope your way...

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  28. Karin ... xoxoxoxxoxo

    Numb is natural, given that you've been given a shock ...

    Love you ... xoxoxoxxoxoxo

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  29. Karin, I am sending you blessings and healing thoughts as you deal with this difficult time.

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  30. Oh Karin...your challenges just seem to never end. So sorry to learn this news, but I know you will conquer this and move forward...
    Thinking of you and wishing you and beautiful Thanksgiving...

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  31. Karin- So sorry to hear about the "c" word, but glad that you were able to find out right aways and do something about it. I will pray for you and hope that you will be able to find some peace, comfort and healing in the coming days.
    Blessings to you always,
    Leslie

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